just another day at the office.....
pretending to be in the web business!
i've tried a lot of things in the business by now. throughout the last year or so i've been a programmer, doing html and server side programming, i've done database administration, and maintenance. i've been a project manager, then again a programmer, a technical consultant, a project manager for a period, and now i'm back to what i would call, technical project management, consulting, responsible for resource planning, competance development, and stuff in a tech department of 9 people and growing fast. i do wireless internat WAP stuff, including a lot of networking, speaking at conferences, and some pre-sales stuff. it's fun, it's diverse, and it's definiteley more work than i can fit into 37 hours a week, but hell :-) that just doesn't seem to be the most important right now
obviously summer has finally hit copenhagen, so a bit of outdoor week-end activity seems in place, and i've started my long trek to losing 10 kilos and getting back in shape. the knee, in the meantime, is still a useless joint, so that seems unchanged.
i'm trying to go for a jog at least twice a week, and supplement with at least one long bike ride, usually to hørsholm, where signe lives about 75 min. from home by bike.what else is there to say. i'm in a fairly exhausting period at work, not much time to think about things, so i'm just chilling, cruising along with whatever things show up. open to suggestions, new impulses and fun things going on. ready, i think, to change direction in a second if the right stimulation shows up, but no longer patently dissatisfied with what i'm getting out of life.
i guess i'm realising that a someone to share life with, an interesting job which pays enough for me not to have to worry about the day-to-day finances, and nice weather go a long way towards making life worthwhile.
always however there is that nagging feeling, provoked when a colleague sends a news item from the web, stating for example: that the 3 richest families in the world (Bill Gates, the Walton family of Wal-Mart fame, adn the Sultan of Brunei) have a combined wealth which easily surpasses the yearly income of the 600 million poorest people on our sad earth.
it makes me sad, and gets me thinking that even with the inconspicuous role i have in it, just being an active part of a global economy that allows these things, should provoke guilt.enough to make me jump out of the global economy? is it an option? is it possible, or is it so tightly woven into all facets of life that escape is an impossible mission, save by leaving this life behind? can i realistically stay in the economy and fight what i perceive as a great unfairness, or is that also just a pretense. can i actually fight something while being a part of that very mis-distribution of wealth? it's a dilemna i don't have an answer to? if anyone else does, please let me know.
quote of the[insert arbitrary period of time here]:
Mary Cholmondeley:
"Every day I live I am more convinced
that the waste of life lies in the love we have not given, the powers
we have not used, the selfish prudence that will risk nothing and which,
shirking pain, misses happiness as well."
currently reading:
Dan
Simmons :
"Hyperion"