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bad news always travels in a group.....

sorry, to those of you who return here for news regularly, i'm sorry. life's been full of surprises, and what with more stress at work, and the process of falling in love surrounding me on all sides, there's been little time, and even less motivation to keep these pages fresh.

here's a few lines i wrote 2 weeks ago (may 3rd), and thought i'd post, but which for whatever reason never made it.

it's been a quiet week, and a quiet week-end..... when i last wrote, i was home in bed feeling like shit, in the. that was tuesday. wednesday, i stayed in til noon, took a few hours to visit my old colleagues at tele danmark internet, and had a game of unreal with them. went to work, for the afternoon, visited my friend san at his work, and went back to work for an evening meeting.

thursday was reboot day. a fast and hot internet conference, inviting some of the best and brightest (and wealthiest) of the us internet scene to talk to about a 1000 web proffesionals. it was an exciting day, due in part to the fact that Justin Hall, the original inspiration for this very page, was one of the speakers. Oh! and the sun was shining, the outdoors facilities included deck-chairs, and there was free beer, courtesy of oracle.

when i got back from reboot, it was, after a short evening of partying, and celebrating the promotion of my colleague, finally a quiet night, with a 3 a.m. visit from my girlfriend Signe, and her friend Trine. Good fun, great brunch on the friday (legal holiday in denmark).

friday was another quiet day, and while i don't remember what i did, i know it was peaceful, efficient and relaxing, with an evening trip to copenhagens famous amusement park (tivoli), for an open air maggie reilly concert, an irish coffee, and a free-fall ride that scares the chronically vertigo-hit like me :-)

I could continuously chronicle the quiet, and comfy weekend, but suffice it to say, that saturday included entirely skipping the traditional danish workers day (may 1st) in favour of something as bourgeios as shopping for clothes, taking my friend san and his girlfriend to lunch, and going out to see 'shakespeare in love' followed by an italian meal, with my lovely mother.

to continue the bland description sunday was a brunch day at basecamp, to celebrate the 50th birthday of san's dad, includeding strip-show, and great buffet breakfast.

that sums up the normal part of the weekend, and it wasn't until i got home sunday afternoon, and Signe dropped by for the evening that things went seriously awry. enjoying life quietly chatting away, Signe called some friends. First response: two of our very good friends broke up :-( Second response: the basketball tournament that most of my friends had gone to that week-end had gone completely wrong.

My teammates, went to aalborg (north denmark) for a week-end baskletball tournament og drinking, partying, and playing bball. Apart from 4 of my really good mates from bball, there were 2 'friends-of -friends' alomg to supplement the team. In a hugely upsetting and horrifying incident, Nils, in a drunken state, slipped on the stairs in the gym, and was found the next morning, back broken, in a respirator, but effectively dead.......

Shock!

and to make it all worse, i've since found out that that same week i refer to, was marred by far more accident than first assumed. when my mothers life took on a similar twist with death and illness amongst friends, and when i heard lately that another friend of mine, crashed his motorcycle, broke 3 ribs, punctured a lung, and lost his spleen in the process.

i'd dwell on all this if i thought it would do any good. the fact is, that all these things happening only serve once again to stress the vulnerability of mighty man. leaving only one real course of action. when something good happens in life, suck it in, swirl it around your whole body, and don't let go until there's no other way.

signe, my lovely girlfriend takes up more space in my life than i've let anyone take up for quite some years now. it's a good feeling, almost perfect, to pick up my heart fill it with love and give it away. who's to say what will comne of it? who's to know, what this will mean to any of us in the long run? and who really cares!

all i do know, is that for the time being, i'm perfectly happy letting her into as much of my life as we can handle, perfectly happy filling my thoughts with her, smiling to the world enjoying the intimacy, the warmth, the hugs and kisses.

it's a beautiful world at those times when emotions are overwhelming. looking at the trees in the graveyard over the road, closing my eyes dreaming of different worlds, a different life, a different way of doing things, smelling the springtime rain, feeling the chill of may on my bare arms. all these things serve only to strengthen my belief in the world, in love, in a smile to melt the frozenness of life.......

 

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Anne Michaels :
"Futigitive Pieces"