anterior cruciate ligament reconstruction....
this is it then, went to the doctors yesterday, waited around for ages, and when he finally showed, i was kind of surprised by his enthusiasm for cutting my knee apart. and i know you're going to say that that's how he makes a living, but one of the supposed benefits of a non-kommercial government supplied health service, is the increase in diagnose objectivity, as the surgeons aren't depending on you as a patient.....
anyway, surgery is scheduled for next thursday next week, where they will take out a section og my thigh muscle, drill a whole through the thigh and lower leg bones, insert the section and fasten it with a couple of large screws.... sound fun? i'm not exactly looking forward to post-operative pain and misery, but at least there's hope that things might get better with my rehab work.....
under all circumstances, fate does remove me from one of those seemingly inevitable decisions. for a while that is. there is no doubt that i won't be working december.... that gives me another 30 odd days before I have to sign a contract.... isn't that nice?!?
well, for now, i'm preparing to vacate the office. i have ordered a a hosting service for the site, so that i will no longer be relying on the server at work. that should also open up for the rest of the krag family to use krag.org, and thereby move this section of krag.org to tomas.krag.org, or tt.krag.org. all this should come into effect by next week.
i wish i had some thoughts to wrute about, but at this point in time, my life is fairly simple. the focus being in order of importance: knee, knee, knee, new job, coaching job, playing roleplaying games, eating, sleeping.
as i mentioned, i went to a volunteer meeting with ibis, wanting to help build a coordinated web effort for their joint campaign to gather money for the victims og mitch. i've been dissapointed. i volunteered to help spread the word, use my contacts to get links up on some of the traffic-heavy danish sites, i was told they would contact me last week, and i've heard exactly nothing.....
i guess they're happier standing around the public libraries collecting money from the 12 people that happen to pass, than actually try to reach the half a million estimated danes with internet access. who am i to judge them? fact is, i'm back in support of GDC's campaign....
i've been having lengthy discussions with a friend of mine on the value of a single life as opposed to a serious relationsship. i guess they both have good days and bad days. i think, sometimes i really miss having someone in my life, someone to hug, and feel the rpesence of, someone to show my feelings too. to share my insecurity, and sometimes sadness with, and to rejoice in happy times with. it's called occasional loneliness, and other days i'm so happy that whatever decisions i make about my life, affect me only and nobody else (that's hardly true, but the approximation will do for now). it's a strange feeling, but it's good. i decided i don't want a relationship unless i suddenlæy meet someone who'll change my mind for me. i have no doubt that such people exist, but maybe it's naive to think i'll meet them unless i go looking for them. well, naivety seems to suit me in that regard, and hell, i have plenty of years yet to learn from my mistakes, before early thirties panic sets in, and i star putting personal adds in the paper :-)
i had a discussion with my mother about the fuure of research, and using the web as a resource. the problems of ephemeral sources. changing, dissapearing and dying. i claimed, backed by an article in the october issue of wired magazine, that the internet in it's essence so ephemeral, so easy to update, and change that it is the most permanent of media. meaning that if something is worth keeping, and reading, it will be copied and recopied until it exists in so many copies it is no longer subject to the frailty of storage media.... this is in essence the ultimate vehicle of researched publishing. in the giant sea of knowledge, that is the internet, the worthwhile ought to always surface and resurface.... the only problem is the tradition of science that dictates a necessity of knowledge being immutable, unchanging, and belonging to that one person who was first. that's frankly a load of bollocks. creation of knowledge is proccess, as is the publishing and republishing of web-documents..... so let go of knowledge, put it on-line, let anyone update and republish, and science is reformed! utopia? yes, definitely! neat? yes, definitely!
See you.....
quote of the[insert arbitrary period of time here]:
Goethe:
"When ideas fail, words come in very handy"
currently reading:
peter f. hamilton:
"the neutronium alchemist"