amazing carrot-cake recipe in danish.... baked one, took some to work, hmmmm.....
long time coming...
it's been a long time coming, this
about 12 days ago, i was here last. i'm not sure why. i can't truthfully
say i've been too busy. but i could claim diverging priorities.
it's definitely not that there has been nothing to write about, so maybe i have been busy. well whatever the reason, here goes.
i spend a lot of time thinking about life, about what makes it real, and different, and worthwhile. Trying to sort the hype from the real thing. I never quite get there, but at least the process teaches me a lot about me.
about what moves me, and touches me, and above all, what my values are.
since it has been a while there are a few little paragraphs in the following. a few things i need to catch up on. get out of the system, talk about, and stuff. so here goes.
i quit my job at the danish telco's internet department. so december first i'm out of a job. why? i wasn't having fun anymore. it has been uninteresting, in it's lack of challenges and new stuff for the past 3 months or so. i repetitively asked the boss to give me something else to do, and he had a sort of system architect / technical sales role for me, but then the brass decided there was too much work in redesigning the internal sytems to actually sell anything.
basically when i got back from london i realixed how dull everything was, and decided to give notice on the last day of the months. it didn't please my boss, and since i really like my colleagues it wasn't easy. but the bottom line is that i'm no good at not having fun. i realized just how important having fun and being challenged is, and just how unimportant the salary is. i'm perfectly happy in my 2-room apartment, with all the material things i want, and about 5000 danish kroner a month for going out and having fun. that's it i guess. no fun, no life.
once i realized just how important the challenge and fun is, going job hunting is so much more fun. make demands not on the wages i can get, but on the title and content of the job is a new fascinating experience. and it seems to make me more attractive to potential employers. i think it's the fact that i make clear demands as to job description, that make me seem more experienced than my first /degree 24-year old, 1 years experience in the bussiness would otherwise indicate.
anyway i think i'll take december off. spend it wisely on an anti-x-mas-stress mission. go to london again, maybe hang out with some friends. definitely have a lot of fun. i would go away for the months, except the knee is in a bit of a state, as ismy personal financial situation at the moment.
i've been interviewing for a job as project manager at icon medialabs, a world-wide web company hq'ed in sweden. they have a tiny department on the rise here in copenhagen. they're an interesting company with an interesting philosophy, a probable future as one of the big players, and a great working environment. of course i have my sights on a few other jobs, in case this one falls through.
the job-search thing, opens my eyes once again to an ever returning discussion about what, if anything is the dream-job that i could do without ever doubting that it was the job for me. and all things considered, that hasn't changed for a while. i still believe gdc's wiring guatemala project to be the one and only for me.
i also thought about other ways to get into the whole ngo bussiness. thoughts of becoming a specialist in 3rd world internet issues, in ngo it consulting and many other things have passed through me, but the bottom line is, that i will probably never be 100% convinced before i've been somewhere in the 3rd world, living, and working with the locals using some of the skills i have to help those who have fewer opportunities. to repay soem of the debt i have to the world, for putting me in such an easy posotion in life.
how, when and where this is going to be is unknown, only that it really should be some day.
enough about jobs, well generally enough about everything for now. not that there isn't more to write or things i want to write, but because i'm in one off those inspirational lapses that makes me want to watch waterworld on tv. no, it's not really that bad, but if there was something good on, i might want to see it.
quote of the [insert arbitrary period of time here]:
Oscar Wilde (1854-1900):
"To live is the rarest thing in the world. Most people exist,
that is all."
currently reading:
peter f. hamilton:
"the neutronium alchemist"