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???; Yaeli (Israel); Me (Here); Paul (UK); Nicola (NZ); Dan (Israel); Gali (Israel)
Existential crap of the day......
The question I tend to ask myself most these days, is probably a question of what to do with myself, on a short-term basis.
Right now, today before the night
There are a million things I'd love to do,
There are worlds to see, and lives to live,
Great dreams that could come true.
There's travelling, with no excuse,
No reason, no extremes
Fascinations there, Curiosity
The world's not what it seems..
There's trying to be true
to me,
to be where there is need
To do some good for poorer men,
while growing strong indeed.
There are all these things out there to touch,
And nowhere I can hide,
I've glimpsed the teasures of the world,
And hate to stay inside....
There's nothing magic or mythical about this. I'm just an ordinary guy, with an urge to do something different. I want to travel, I want to work for a charity, I want to pursue my own projects, help heal the world with what I do, and do it all today. I have no patience, I cannot wait. Yet I sit around, work.... Then go out and spend the money I've earned trying to have fun.
That achieves any number of things. First of all, I never manage to save much for all those trips I plan, secondly I get fatter and fatter, while waiting for my knee to heal, and lastly I manage to entertain myself exactly so much that I, for a time, forget the burning hunger for something else. I manage to subdue the voice in my guts yelling for me to do something else, not to worry, but to go with my instinct. Subdue it but never satisfy it.
I know it's there, and I know it will not go away, I also know that leaving now is insane, while my knee is messed up. It's not really the not going now, that irritates me, it's knowing that I have to go, and then not going that does it. It makes me not want to invest in my life here, the one which is reality right now. No plans of this or that kind for the immediate future, because I know it would be futile, after all I am going, as soon as the knee gets better.
I guess there's no solution to that, except decide on one or the other, and then adjust accordingly.....
Well I'm going. And I will live patiently until I can :-)
My last week has been fantastic>>>